(PLEASE READ: I would like for you all to know that I do not support racial supremacy in any way or form, just letting you all know that my screen name is not to be taken seriously) Hey folks, Irving here. I'm a very opinionated archaeology major, with a twin brother equally as opinionated as I am. i post many things involving Indigenous rights and stuff involving equal rights and nature on this, but i will not limit myself. I will post the occasional nerd based or metal post. I take pride in part of my ancestry and am angry at the other. Like many of my friends would say, I'm just a very angry brown guy XD
Mon 20th May
12 hours ago
And only I can fix myself -_-
Maybe practicing piano will help….
Mon 20th May
12 hours ago
I am not about to talk about personal shit, but i feel like i gotta say something because it is killing me inside. To most of you who do not know, I have a twin brother. I will spare details of course because those details and the shit that occurred is only between me and my brother and no one else. Right now I am feeling like shit. Mostly because I started some shit that now I regret. I don’t know how to fix things right now and it is leaving me feeling empty. Maybe it was that empty feeling that caused me to say the shit that I said. I regret it though, I am sitting here crying my eyes out because i said some shit I now fucking regret. I wish i could take back what I said but what is done is done.
I feel like we are drifting apart he and I, I blame him, but he blames me. But the truth is we are both causing ourselves to drift away rather than us work together, and that was why I wanted him to keep being with the band in the first place. I was hoping we could work together in writing the music, collaborating with stuff and stop being so hostile towards each others opinions. But now I don’t even know if I will get that chance. He must hate me right now for the shit that I said. I hate myself right now for the shit I said and did.
We are brothers, I love him to death. Sometimes I wish he’d show it though. Maybe I caused this, maybe I am to blame for our current state. I don’t know…. My words were empty after all. But not in their eyes. They were not empty words, but words said during a heated battle that I now wish never happened. My own brother now wanders off thinking who knows what, leaving me wondering how things will turn out now. I have been crying for the past hour because of it and I feel I will suffer even further for it. Words are powerful after all, and my words after all really were hurtful.
With tears flowing down from my eyes, I wish i could say the words I AM SORRY, i wish i could just take it all back. But I also wish I could have my brother back, as selfish as that may be I really want my brother back. The same brother who growing up, we collaborated on so many things, but not anymore. Now, things seem different, he seems distant. Or, was I the one who was distant…. Perhaps I was. Now I feel like I hurt two peoples with one stone. I wish I could apologize to the one girl whom I would be proud in calling my sister in law. I want to apologize, but she stormed off…. Angry at me, angry at my brother. Shit, what I would do to turn back time right now….
With my brother angry at me, who knows if he will see this. Look at me, spreading my emotions on this site like anyone cares. I apologize to you all as well, for putting up with my shit. really wish I could have said those words to them before they stepped out of the house. My loneliness seems like a curse to me now, A curse that I shouldn’t be taking out on anyone else, a curse that I now kind of wish I didn’t have to put myself through, but I am.
It’s all my fault after all :(
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shoutout to the followers who have never spoken to me but stay (✿◠‿◠)
shoutout to the people I talk to every day and often rant to emotionally (◕‿◕✿)
shoutout to the people who I sometimes go weeks without talking to but then can message out of the blue and still adore just as much (✿☺‿☺)
shoutout to you (♥‿♥)
Fri 17th May
3 days ago
“Indigenous nations and peoples are never just a product of state ideologies, never just a product of an educational system. They are always able to relate to traditional teachings and Indigenous knowledges, regardless of how state, religious, or educational systems attempt to assimilate them […] Indigenous teachings and legal traditions live on in the unconsciousness and the consciousness of the people who were oppressed by colonization; they were passed from one generation to another through stories, art, and ceremonies so that each people could restore them at the right time.”